In only three months, two of the most important people to me in Canada left me, left Canada. I may never see them again. The last place I saw both of them is the airport in Fredericton. One is the man I used love very much, another is a best friend of mine. Seeing them taking away from me feels complicated and difficult. I feel regret; hope I can hold them longer and be better with them. Honestly, I am neither a good friend, nor a good girlfriend at all. I don’t like to be close to people including my family; even I really wish I would. I am a friend who may never call, never hang out, but when my friends need help, I will always be there, and I will give my best to help. I wish all of my friends be happy and doing well with their life. But I don’t want to disturb them when they are enjoying their life. As a girlfriend, I can only say I am a responsible one not an understanding one. I don’t like to show my weakness. My father trained me to be tough at all the time. I am not caring enough emotionally as a girl, ironically, all of my boyfriends I have ever had are all very sensitive. I think that is one of the big reasons my first love left me. Cant believe on the last day he left me I was still angry with him because he was back home 3hours late and made me very worried. I kicked him out of my home in front of his friends. But at the time he was stepping on the airplane I was crying badly and feeling regret badly. Today, when I saw Nami walking through the security gate, I felt sad as well, I tried hardly to hold my tears, because I don’t know when we will see each other again. She is like a sister to me, and she is one of the few people I can talk to. We have a lot in common, but she is tougher than me and she has a lot of friends around. I like her a lot, and I admire her. If I could choose again, I would love to be single during the four-year study in UNB and I will enjoy the wonderful life with friends and take part in all the different activities in campus. Now she is already in Toronto, next week she will be in Japan with her family and looking for jobs. Like I said, I have a good faith on her, I believe that she will be doing good with everything in Japan. Four years in Fredericton, she has changed a lot from a little girl to a mature one in all the good ways. Nami, I am so proud of you! I will miss you a lot. I will look forward to see you again when we both move to the next stage in our life. Finally finished my diary for today. Her left reminds me a lot, including many memories from his left. I couldn’t go to sleep without finishing this. I had a lot dreams about him, his home stay, and the bus station in meturtown. It has been a long time since our last talk, the longest record ever. Hope everything is good with you and you have my best wishes as long as you like.